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I'm Not Human After All. [Apr. 19th, 2005|04:13 pm]
Self Injection
I'm on my way to earning a degree in kickass-ary.
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Don't You Pray For My Soul Anymore.. [Apr. 13th, 2005|08:58 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |amusedAmused.]
[music |Two Minutes Till Midnight - Iron Maiden]

Its depressing really, but you know what they say, we all die alone..
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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2005|10:11 am]
Self Injection
[mood |calmCalm.]
[music |Do You Love Me? - The Contours]

If dreams were dreams,
And dreams came true,
I woulden't be here,
I'd be with you
call me crazy,
call me insane,
each time my heart beats
It whispers your name,
I love you ......Bryan


I was looking through some old email, and i found this in an email from Michelle. I like keeping old things saved as memories. Moments like these make me glad i did.

This is how i know i have self-worth now, and that the people that i thought had self-worth before instead of me, never did.

Thanks Michelle.
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Dum De Dum De Dum... [Mar. 26th, 2005|02:13 am]
Self Injection
[mood |amusedAmused]
[music |Panic - Yu-gi-oh (Don't Question It, Its A Hot Song.)]

I had an eventful day. Spoke on AIM and took a midnight walk to cool off.

Other than that, i had to make odds and ends about the love story of an ugly fat girl and an equally ugly half toasted retard/druggie.

Ah well. Its looking O.K.
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Weeee! [Mar. 24th, 2005|06:49 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |amusedDetermined, Yo.]
[music |D' Din Tei - Haiducci Vs. Gabry Ponte.]

My foots asleep, i'm waiting for the next Naruto episode to download.

Remind me why i'm sitting on a pillow?

I talked to Brittney on the phone yesterday. That was odd, and i got an email from Ash. That was pretty cool, i answered it maybe less than two hours ago.

I wonder, if i was in a vegetative state, would i want someone to kill me? Probably, quickly. But i wouldn't want someone to have to do it for me, or help me in any way. Directly or indirectly.

What thats in reference to is obvious.
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Whoa: [Mar. 23rd, 2005|08:30 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |amusedAmused.]
[music |The Sound Of Inevitability - Bryan]

Just something i thought i'd write since it was noteworthy, Dr. Kevorkian, the assistance-suicide "doctor" was finally convicted after maybe a dozen court cases because of all the people he helped kill themselves in MI. (Over 100) He was sentenced to 10-25 years, but of course, he only got "6 years" then he can appeal for a parole. Interesting facts you ask? He was put in jail April 13th, 1999. He'll be back in the outside world in around 3 weeks if they give him parole. Makes me sick. Ya don't just help someone kill themselves because they're miserable.

Oh, and heres the punchline:

Hes in:

Thumb Correctional Facility
3225 John Conley Dr
Lapeer, MI 48446-2987

Har har har.
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I Art Better Than Thou: [Mar. 20th, 2005|02:24 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |blankBlank]
[music |I'm An Asshole - Dennis Leary]

I've been playing Scratch n Match for months now. Now, i'm not complaining since it doesn't cost me anything, but i wish i won something. First thing i'd do.. Is spend 2/5 of it like theres no tomorrow. Word to ya mother.

Then, if the 3/5 that was left was like 600, i'd save it. And if it was like 6000 that was left, then i would hop on a plane and go shopping with Mrs. Ashlee. And ice skate too.


Yesterday was pretty eventful, but today is one of those days that goes by slowly. Sundays are always like that. I got some new skates. They're pretty good, But i say, the guy who thought of putting one brake on one skate and nothing on the nothing, is either the devil, or my old 8th grade math/social studies teacher.
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You're The Closest To Heaven That I'll Ever Be, And I Don't Wanna Go Home Right Now.. [Mar. 12th, 2005|12:33 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |crazyCrazy]
[music |Ma Ya Hi (Eng Version) - O-Zone.]

Alright, its been a long time since i updated, i know. Well you're in for a real treat this time, so my lack of writting hasn't been in vain. Maybe i was just waiting for a lot of really good things to accumulate first, which they did i guess.

And in the past couple days not too much happened, i took the train halfway through NY to get to JR Music World taking the subway. Let it be known that the subways here are rocketships on a track and if they went that loser state MI, they'd get there in 90 minutes at the rate they run.

Well anyway, i bought an awesome CD player that does it all, audio cd, mp3 cd, am/fm radio, tv broadcast, and weatherband. It was a hot 70 because it was on sale, and the battery life is 80 hours. Then i had enough money to get these mini speakers for it. I call it the worlds tiniest complete entertainment center.

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And heres another picture. Look at where i found my cat:

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Other than that, Ashlee's dads been talking about me, and telling his drinking buddies about Ashlee's boyfriend.

XD She walks out her house the other day and her neighboor asks her "Hows Bryan". So apparently even her dad doesn't care that i'm with Ashlee.

Well, thats cool, and on a sidenote, Ashlee's journal is worth checking out, her names Chewable_Asprin.

...And thats all.
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I Desire... Brass Knuckles And Bagpipes... [Mar. 6th, 2005|08:10 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |cheerfulCheerful.]
[music |Ms. Jackson - Outkast]

Yeah, my weekend was pretty uneventful, i severely overdosed on aspirin (More than ten.) while i was on the phone with Ashlee. You know, just for kicks. All it did was send me to the bathroom a few times friday and saturday.

Well, yesterday Ash stayed over at Jen's because her mom was too lazy to pick her up, and i was just messing around with Gaia and a few other things. And its funny, because since me and Ash have been talking on the phone since January, we've never missed a day. We used to talk everyday from about 9 pm to 2 or 4 am, now we hang up at around 11:30-2:00 because of my mom.

Hehe. I really love this girl, i can really see myself getting married to her in a few years, and i can't wait. I'm always thinking about her, and shes so cute to me. Thats why i call her Mrs. Ashlee, because i'm dying to marry her and wake up to her cheery face every morning, and even in the middle of the night when i wake up to the sound of her on the other side of our bed, singing our baby to sleep. I'm glad that i'm the only guy shes ever gone out with that was more than infatuation, and i know that maybe shes fallen for people she shouldn't have. I know i've been with a lot of girls by now, and it sucks that i had to go through all of them as a means of filtering out all the "trash", although a few of the girls i went out with weren't trash. (Michelle, Ashley, Julia..) But maybe i wasn't meant to be with either of those three. But right now i feel like i've met the one i wanna be with. I've met people i wanted to "be with" in the past, but i've never felt this level of comfort. A lot of these girls were all show but no substance.

I guess one of the things that makes me feel sure, is that me and her mom always ask about each other, and that she even tells Ash that shes glad shes with me. I'm glad she feels that level of comfort with me, because i know that i'm a good guy, its just that women are such fragile minded animals and they don't realize a good guy when they see one, and they always make the mistake of letting go of "Mr. Right", and usually never realizing it. And thats why so many women are miserable now and there are so many divorces, because they wind up getting married or knocked up by the guys that aren't worth anything. Its my opinion and therefore common sensical law, that fathers should arrange their daughter's marriage. Most women can't make basic decisions for themselves, and whoevers reading this: Rest assured, you're probably NOT the exemption.

But regardless, i just really love Ashlee, and i love hearing her voice, and i don't think i'd ever want to be with anyone else. I know i've liked her all along, but right now its starting to reach that climax where i know what i want, and i'm beginning to see that i'm seeing all these qualities in her.

Of course i've loved her all along, but now i'm beginning to long for her, and
i feel like i need her to complete a part of me. Thats how i know its real.
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His Majesty Bryan: [Mar. 4th, 2005|03:44 pm]
Self Injection
[mood |drainedDrained.]
[music |Flavor Of The Week - American Hi-Fi.]

After some thinking, i've come to several conclusions that i've already known:

-I'm decently good looking.
-I kick ass.
-I'm smarter and more intelligent than everyone i've ever met.
-I have the greatest music collection in my folder.
-All my ex's are ugly to look at minus Ashley and Michelle.
-People who disagree with me are wrong.
-I have the best taste in techno.
-Kayvon is my main man.
-I must raise money and pull myself together, because i want to go to Lapeer this Winter.
-I need a place to stay at in Lapeer. Normally i'd crash at someone's place, but everyone in Lapeer is an imbecile, and i don't think Senor Steve wants me crashing with Mrs. Ashlee.
-I'm too cool for school.

Well yesterday was pretty normal, went to the dentist, had a double cheeseburger, some fries, picked up a copy of GQ, and confirmed that only dumbasses read/buy Anne Rice books.

I'll write about today once its later in the day.
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